sunday thoughts
it's been awhile...
Welcome to sunday thoughts at hazearella where I brain dump weekly to save my sanity. Or pretend it does.
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If you’d like a recap of my week it can be found at hazelist.
The youngest has her birthday coming up very soon
And all I can think about is how much of a shock it was I was going into labor at 6am thinking I was just having Braxton Hicks. I was actually 6cm dilated and had no hospital bag anywhere close to ready. So I only showed up with my purse and whatever I had on. It was great. Esp since I was rushing last minute to get my hospital bag ready the last labor day I had.The same 3 foods have been on repeat for me the last few weeks
Taco Bell Steak Cantina Bowl, White Peach Red Bull and Good & Gather BBQ Chips. Maybe not the best combo but it definitely makes me happy and right now, that’s all that matters.I went 4 or 5 nights with no sleeping aid
It was interesting and such a shift. I did take one last night and I woke up several hundred times it feels like. I think I wake up less when I don’t take one. Not entirely sure yet but the fact I can even fall asleep without a sleeping aid is beyond amazing. I’ve struggled with falling asleep naturally since I was 20, so… 20 years. I’m sure you can imagine my excitement right now.My 7th wedding anniversary just passed
That’s 2 years longer than my previous marriage. I was showered with more gifts than I know what do with. But of all of them was the Hot Cheetos with Lime and him saying “and I know you can’t have Hot Cheetos without… Cherry Coke.” it was a thing when I use to fly to TX from FL, he’d pick me up with Hot Cheetos and Cherry Coke every single time because they didn’t have Hot Cheetos with Lime in Florida (like, at all). Also got to try a new French spot that replaced one of my favorite places awhile back and omfg it was SO good, I’m still craving the starter bread. I strongly believe if a place has fire starter bread the whole place is going to be good.
Got some new blind boxes that I hope I open lol, I also got Disney blind box pins
I’m missing my Disney spring trip hard enough to buy off property Disney blind box pins. Tbh, they’re cheaper than on property but still. Too pricey when you’re not on vacation though. The Aphmau new collection came out along with the Easter collection but I couldn’t find any of the Easter ones.
I was reminded that the way I shut my anxiety up is…
Doing exactly what it’s telling me not to do and telling it to fuck itself as I do. The anxiety of moving states was so strong when I left CA 15 years ago, it was the only place I knew but it wasn’t healthy for me to stay there anymore — I told my anxiety we’re moving to Florida and you can either stfu now or expect me to make it worse when we get there. Proving an imaginary voice in my head telling me I can’t do something wrong is probably one of the best things I’ve done for myself in this life.I’ve been missing my pre-kids days
I love my kids, I would do anything for them and it’s a shame mothers have to preface that when they say they miss their old lives or their previous selves. But most people don’t know OR don’t talk about how much a woman’s mind and body changes after pregnancy and esp after birth (I can’t sneeze without peeing on myself anymore, for example since I gave birth the first time 6 years ago). I’m constantly fighting this brain fog where I’m trying to reach for my previous self and just never reaching her.In honor of Chinese New Year I will be streaming Dynasty Warriors
But let’s be real, it’s mostly because I just freakin love this game and I miss it lol. I’m a bit disappointed with the lack of CNY products in the beauty industry this year. Usually MAC does something but this year they haven’t. I did get my Sugarfina but without MAC or makeup to match it with I feel like it’s not worth shooting. But idk, maybe.
I’m ready to decompress and wind down for the day, it’s been a long weekend. I hope you all had a great weekend and have a wonderful week ahead!