Sending over a hug! It makes sense to me that you've been running so long and pushing so hard your body doesn't know how to allow rest. When you try to do so you may be fidgety or have intrusive thoughts that tell you you aren't doing enough. When your body has had enough it will crash and you'll end up in a situation like you did. You're realizing everything which is great and coming to terms with it as a process. That's progress for sure. Don't sell yourself short. You're doing better than you think 🩷.
Thank you for this and you're absolutely right! I'm still stuck in fight or flight/auto and I was never really in a space where I could just stop. It's hard to realize that now that I'm much older and raising two little girls who I can only hope have a healthier nervous system, sigh.
Like Shelby, I'm sending over a hug too! I hope you are feeling better and back to yourself, but it sounds like you are carrying a lot. I hope your body plays ball, because it's no fun when it doesn't. You're doing great! and welcome to Substack. I hope you can find your people here. xx
Thank you so much, currently I'm feeling MUCH better but also.. a little in a blah space. I'm hoping I can find a way to allow myself rest without feeling bad.
I know that blah space well and unfortunatley the guilt that comes from resting. If you find anything that works, let me know. If I remember, I try to list three things I'm grateful for when I find that I'm not being kind to myself.
Sending over a hug! It makes sense to me that you've been running so long and pushing so hard your body doesn't know how to allow rest. When you try to do so you may be fidgety or have intrusive thoughts that tell you you aren't doing enough. When your body has had enough it will crash and you'll end up in a situation like you did. You're realizing everything which is great and coming to terms with it as a process. That's progress for sure. Don't sell yourself short. You're doing better than you think 🩷.
Thank you for this and you're absolutely right! I'm still stuck in fight or flight/auto and I was never really in a space where I could just stop. It's hard to realize that now that I'm much older and raising two little girls who I can only hope have a healthier nervous system, sigh.
Like Shelby, I'm sending over a hug too! I hope you are feeling better and back to yourself, but it sounds like you are carrying a lot. I hope your body plays ball, because it's no fun when it doesn't. You're doing great! and welcome to Substack. I hope you can find your people here. xx
Thank you so much, currently I'm feeling MUCH better but also.. a little in a blah space. I'm hoping I can find a way to allow myself rest without feeling bad.
I know that blah space well and unfortunatley the guilt that comes from resting. If you find anything that works, let me know. If I remember, I try to list three things I'm grateful for when I find that I'm not being kind to myself.